(A meditation.)

The Hebrew God, the God of “The Bible Code”, is the very opposite of the Socinian God, who is not omnipotent but is all-loving; the Socinian God whose nonviolent coming I so eagerly await. The God of the Bible Code threatens me with disasters about to happen soon unless I can change it, or change (myself). The Socinian God loves me unconditionally.

Can I accept a revelation that offends my ethical sense? It’s a case of Truth versus Goodness. I have worked long and diligently to invent my God of Love, not Power.

Must I now yield my favorite theory to hard evidence? This is especially hard for me, who has always put hard evidence first, but who is appalled at the Hebrew God’s vengefulness, His advocacy of genocide, His heartlessness to Job and especially Job’s wife and children. And my incident with the card that fell down (see the essay liThe Fifth Yoga”) is also evidence. And some people doubt the evidence of the Bible Code.

Yet I suppose that He is both Truth and Goodness originally, and both Power and Love, as the unified En Sof before the creation, and even as Kether, His deputy to this Universe. But when He/She splits into male and female, I much prefer active intelligence to cold wisdom (seeking rather than omniscience), I prefer merciful love to abstract justice, life-like perseverance in process to majesty of achievement; in other words, Mother to Father.

Unless they procreate to produce the Flower of Supreme Beauty, the Tiferet of Jesus.